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April 5th, 2009

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 I'm going to go hiking in Lake Minnewaska on Tuesday. I've never been there before but my friend said it was really beautiful with watefalls. The weather forecast says it'll snow, but it said that last time and we've had no snow yet. It seems like a long drive, but I googled some pictures and it looks epic. The water there is crystal clear, but no fish live in it because there's too much calcium from the rocks. Many trails to go hiking, so I really hope it'll be a nice day out so we can have a picnic. Im definitely bringing my camera too cause I've never been into the wilderness before. Erin is coming too, and I have a feeling she's going to complain about hiking. She won't even ride bikes with me...I even told her she better not complain cause I'm not stopping for anyone. Me & Temina plan on staying in shape by hiking for miles and it isn't our fault if Erin can't keep up.

Doug called me last night saying he was in the hospital again and said he doesn't think it's the meds that are messing him up, it's the weed. No fuckin shit you retard...and he's still acting weird. He keeps asking me what I want and shit and I'm like..well...I can get anything I want as long as I have the money for it. He wants to buy me a DSi and just to give him my DS lite. DSi's cost 170 and DS lites cost 130...it makes no sense why he would want to do that even though mine is only a month old. Then he offers to buy me a bike...he already knows I have a boyfriend, but he claims he's doing it out of friendship. I can't help but be wary.

Lmao random pic;
edward cullen
Edward Cullen is hot. The actor himself isn't though...not without his character and pale vampiro makeup. The girl actor Bella pisses me off so bad. I'm not good at picking bad actors out, but I obviously saw her sad attempts at shock and nervousness. I compare her to Bill Cosby; bobbing her head when she talks and stuttering while her chiclet teeth bounce around in her mouth. Horrible acting indeed. I love the vampire father though...I think he is my favorite in the whole movie. He's really handsome too.

Hmm...I just read that Guiding Light hold's a world record for being the longest played tv drama. I don't remember who was who, but I know one of the actors were at my job along with those other stupid soap opera peoples.

March 14th, 2009

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 I'm kind of sad today. I usually have a bowl of cereal in the morning for..lunch. And lately I've just been feeling bloated and sluggish more than ever. I know I'm lactose intolerant but I think it's getting worse. I'm not able to drink a glass of milk unless I'm having something to eat with it, which is why cereal was no big deal for me, but not anymore. Cereal is pretty much my favorite thing to eat, with some ice cold milk. It doesn't seem like much to be sad about cause I can just replace breakfast with something, but it just makes me sad. At least I can still eat cheese though. I couldn't possibly give up grilled cheese as my comfort food. I could take those pills but I'm tired of pills :/

March 9th, 2009

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 So I had this Wachovia account when I moved to Florida because my uncle said it was a good bank. You can open up with nothing and have as little as 5$ in there and not have any problems. When I moved to Jersey I still had that account. Then I moved back up to NY and closed it; that was over 3 years ago. They hadn't contacted my or anything...until now. They're telling me I owe them money but I know for a fact that I don't because I closed the account 3 years ago. It makes me suspicious because all of the sudden they come out of nowhere saying I owe them when I haven't had any kind of Wachovia account for 3 years. No letters or anything either, and also I never gave them my PO Box for NY and they somehow have it. I refuse to pay that, and the letter also doesn't say what the balance is for or why I owe them that much. I think they're now scrounging around for money because they're bankrupt and being taken over by citigroup.

I paid my one medical bill today, cause my health insurance failed to go through. I called them up and they said they mailed my documents to the wrong address, so because of their fuck up I have to suffer. They didn't bother to call me or send me an email about it either. So I'm going to make an appt and demand that I have my insurance go through asap, cause I've been waiting for a while now and I'm not going to wait another however many months for it to go through again.

So I heard the full version of FYI by Utada, and I love it so much more. The melody is simply amazing <3 Two other new previews came out; Apple & Cinnamon, and Taking My Money Back. I sort of heard them but I was also distracted at the time too lol. I hope this is going to be in stores cause I'm not a fan of buying albums digitally. For that I can just get them for free. I knew her songs were going to have this R&B feel to them, and FYI is so like her style. I felt like Come back to Me wasn't really her song, it was just something to put out there that would catch America's eye. Her song has been on the radio for quite some time now, but I don't listen to radio so I haven't heard it yet. Thats ok though cause I still request it on the radio sites.

February 3rd, 2009

Special Date

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Mk so...I have to remember the 14th of Jan. 2009 at 1am. Why? Cause it's important that's all :) Are milliseconds important? No...thats like asking if midgets are important.

I'll prolly add more when I feel like it.

K...BoA's new song I did it for Love.
http://www.allkpop.com/index.php/full_story/boa_i_did_it_for_love_us_track_leaked/

I think I like Eat You Up better. The song reminds me of Timbaland's The Way I Are but worse because you can't understand much of what she's saying. Yea her accent is pretty damn heavy in there, almost as heavy as the synthesize in her voice. I honestly think it's terrible even though this is just a preview. I don't get how people in Bjj can't pick up her accent...but it's probably because the lot of them have accents themselves and aren't from the US lol. The laugh in the beginning makes the song comical...and the lyrics are eh as well. 3 songs we've heard so far from her US album, and none of them seem to catch my eye as much as her Japanese stuff. Eat You Up is still the only decent one, and Look Who's Talking is such a joke. I must say though that she still looks pretty and she pulls off the tomboy look alot better than trying to be elegant and classy. But it makes me wonder if people will take her look seriously or just see her as adorable and move on. Eh...while everyone is listening to this song, I'll stick with Believe in Love & Eien.

It's snowing, but not so bad, just flurries. I hope I can get my ass out today cause I don't feel like being snowed in. The roads are wet but don't look sticky. I got my taxes in now all I have to do is sign them and I'm finished. I wonder how much I'm getting back this year, it's probably not going to as much as last year that's for sure. I almost 1000 somethin back which was a miracle.

February 2nd, 2009

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So I just got threatened to update my journal or else a big black guy is going to steal my car. Speaking of cars..there's alot of snow outside...good thing it didn't snow inside my room. I love how people walk in and out of my house like a rest stop. I went to go to the bathroom and thought my father was in there, so I knocked on the door and friggin Mario answers...I'm like.."He's taking a shit...in my house..." His party sucked...all they did was get drunk and smoke, my buddy Scott left as soon as I got there. I was annoyed so I didn't do anything but sit by the chips and it them. Guess I'm not into that shit...I would rather be clubbing. I would've went snowboarding with Ant...IF I knew how to snowboard really good. Oh wellz...there is summer :B SO...everyone has pretty much seen Batman..and then there's me. I always manage to fall asleep in the middle of the movie, and wake up just in time to see the end. God what an awesome movie. I have it on replay so I can look every now and then to see some scenes..I'll put them together some day.

I can't wait to hear Hikki's new album..actually I can. For some reason I don't feel hyped up about it. I hope she doesn't dress like a granny to clubs & stuff.

Anyways so how is everyone doing? Yea it does smell in here but I can explain. I farted.

January 18th, 2009

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Lol Ant is so cute. I heard the bell ring and when I opened the door there he was with two cups of ice cream in the windy cold. Then he goes "I'm such a bad guy I got this ice cream then just remembered you were lactoce intolerant." I just looked at him and thought you're standing here...in the cold with ice cream in your hands and you're saying you're a bad guy?? I'm not a severe lactoce intolerant person, I can eat ice cream, and so I did XD I just thought it was a very sweet gesture. We dug into some cheesecake that I told my father we slobbered on so he wouldn't touch it lol. He also took me to the doctors so they could check on my tonsils, and mentioned something about my swollen eye cause I wasn't in the mood to talk. He'll even drive in the worst weather just to bring me something. What a cutie <3 See, I'm such a simple girl that simple things just make me smile. It's nice to have a diamond ring, but it's better to have some ice cream!

Mk so in ten days supposedly I'm getting my tonsils taken out...cause amoxicillin does crap for me. This is my 5th time taking this, but I guess they can't take the tonsils out until they're less inflamed n stuff like mine were.

My gut instincts were to stay, but my mind was summing up the good possibillites that awaited for me in Texas. Then I realized something; I'm a New Yorker and there isn't a place on the Earth that I would feel permanently comfortable in. I guess I was so caught up in the idea of leaving everything behind that I didn't realize I would be leaving a good important chunk of my life that I was already happy with. Chances are I won't be happy in Texas; I wasn't in FL or NJ or Puerto Rico, and I came back to NY eventually. It's a big state filled with many other cities that I can explore, and I can easily get the same stuff thats in Texas, and probably much more. Also I'm not that far from Canada, and Suyen owes me a tour. I didn't just think about this either, I've been thinking about it all throughout the beginning, I just didn't want to listen lol.

January 17th, 2009

Holy Faak

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I don't think I can debate it anymore, I NEED to get my tonsils out. I thought I had it under control, but I woke up today choking and could barely swallow. My father being the "supportive" person he is, looks at me and says "you should get that checked out." then leaves for work. Thanks a fucking lot cause you know...I could've choked to death in my sleep and all but hey it's fine and shit cause I'm still here. Ugh...this is not good at all...I'm scared to have them removed cause they keep telling me it's risky and thats why they keep giving me medicene, but I can't take this anymore. It looks like I've got the moon caught up in my throat...and the odd thing is that the right tonsil seems to be fine...if one tonsil is enough to wake my ass up at 7 in the morning, imagine what 2 can do. Taguuuu na I can't go back to sleep now cause I'm scared, and I'm running on 3 hours. I took some Aleve and drank some warm tea but fuck that's not going to do much if it hasn't in the past. My tonsil was bad to begin with but now this is unbearable...my throat is swollen, I feel all bloaty (iuno if that has anything to do with the tonsil, it could be the grill cheeses I been eating lately lol), and my poor ear keeps popping T__T. I think I would take Fibromyalgia any day to this D: Ack...Ant told me to get them out asap...guess he's gonna get his wish...he might have to take me too cause I don't think I'll be able to work today. Ugh...

January 7th, 2009

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So I think I'm gonna try that permanent straightening stuff...I just don't want my hair to be verrrrry straight cause I like curls...just not mine lol.  

So we got bored last night and decided to go to Ping & Pong's house to play Smash. I think the highlight of that part was watching the cat playing in the snow on a leash. Yes, a cat on a leash...very funny. Leave it up to the Chinese to play with their food.

I woke up a few times last night at Ant's house. Between coughing and being in a new place..I dunno. The bed and covers were comfy though lol. At one point I was about to wake him up cause I felt odd. I get uneasy when it's really quiet cause then you can hear the house creaking and heater go on and off. I is sooo not a morning person...I sounded like Flavor Flav too lmao. I hope Toenail Carlucci will go easy on him today...goddam sloth. Ant thinks my father's intimidating lol. If anything, me and my father's relationship is somewhat like Bam Magera and his father. I beat on him and torture him just to get him mad lmao. My father is just a little kid, and a friend.

My tonsils have been bothering me lately. They're fine now...it has to be th weather cause I don't have strep throat or anything like that. I haven't gotten tonsilloths in a while though which is good. I need to lay off the milk because thats what might be causing it.

The roads are crazy icey...like rediculous. I don't remember it being like this last year...it's gotten worse. Maybe it'll get worse from here. My test was most likely canceled (it better have been because there's no way I can make it out there with my car's condition)

Josh sounded happy to hear my voice today, he even said he would call me back. I don't want to hang out with him for obvious reasons though. After breaking up for the last time (It's been a month now), it seems best to not be around him. He has this kind of negative auroa that makes me tired and quiet...dunno really. He apologized to me about his online gf...I'm like wtf for? I warned him about internet people and how they can pretty much be whoever they say they are just to get infos out of others. Naive bastard...I'm not saying you can't fall in love with someone you met over the internet, but it just doesn't happen over a two day period like that retard claimed. For all he knows that chic coulda been a fat guy with grey dreadlocks and a bird on his shoulder with a glass eye and a peg leg lmao. Sad fuck...I told him I would never take him back, and I won't either. I don't need that kind of grief again. He was right to say that I deserved someone better than him, and I believe I found that someone..even though it hasn't been long, some people just click like that.

 

December 25th, 2008

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So my Christmas present is going to be this Saturday...ho ho ho. lol. I'm going to see Lil Wayne, Young Jeezy, Ludacris, T.I. and Jim Jones at a concert. How cool is that? Well I really just want to see Ludacris but everyone else is pretty good too. We're going in a limo for some strange reason lmao. Ugh I need to go shopping for clothes to wear..

I love my necklace Suyen got for me, even though it's his birthstone :p My father keeps looking at it and says "Holy shit are those diamonds? diamonds?" I'm like no...you can't sell it.
 


 

December 15th, 2008

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Our landlord gave us a 30$ certificate as a Christmas present to this pizza place. First off, the pizza tastes like shit there because Mario works there and he tells me this, second...it would've been nice to have some dough knocked off the rent instead.

Omg there's mice in the wall T___T I hear them chirping and running around. Not cool...I mean they're cute but diseases and all that jazz...and smell. I would have to find a crack in the wall and spray febreeze in there :/ I tell them shut up and they stop for like 5 mins.

We're going to the You You this Friday, I just hope Erin doesn't start mocking the Asian employees there, all I can do is put my head down. I'll try and get her to eat sushi lol. It's supposed to have no taste until you put stuff on it like wasabi, but since I have super senses it does have a taste...which ruins it for me lol. Oh and drinking Mai Tai...I don't really drink and I might have only one since the guys are going to drink of course. Damn drunkards. As long as everyone is good and happy it will be fun.

It would be better to stay away from negative people like Josh. He didn't like me hanging around Mario..I've known him for 6 years and he's been a good friend ever since. Josh even tried looking Mario's number up in the phonebook to call his house and cuss him out for no reason. He didn't like me hanging around Dink his brother, didn't like when I went places with friends, never wanted to go anywhere...was mean to me 24/7, and even when I went out of my way to get him nice little gifts, he would say something like "Oh now I have to get you something" "I never asked you to get me anything" An ungreatful guy...no wonder why I felt so miserable around him.

The past isn't called the past for nothing.

December 7th, 2008

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I've cut m hair...very short. I didn't really mean to either, but I just went along with it. But now I'm getting annoyed because it reminds me of Cloud Strife's hair...yea it's that short. I'd show a pic now but I have no hairspray in it to spike it up.

ugh

The only difference is my bangs are shorter in length but longer at the top...and my hair is black..lol. If I ever put a foot in some Converses though, I'll shoot myself. It feels weird because I've never had it this short before, but at least I can save alot on shampoo & conditioners lol.

I got diarrhea.

November 6th, 2008

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Welp I got the tattoo on Tuesday even though I said I wouldn't get it. Good thing is that I'm not addicted to it. I have no desire to get another one, and it's not even because it hurt because it didn't. I was just sitting there falling asleep while the chic did my tattoo on my ankle. I did a last minute draw up of it because I forgot to print my design before I left home. It came out good, but  a little different from the original. Instead of the 3 leaves around the yin yang, it's red rose petals with orange tint. The spikes are stll the same though. The healing process is annoying...gravity goes into affect whenever I stand and the tattoo starts hurting and pulsing. It'll look like shit before it looks like a masterpeice lol. I won't tell my father either until it heals up..it'll be a surprise haha.

Wut wut Obama is our new prez..thank God. I'm anticipating the health benefits now. I've got bills that need to be burned.
 
What else...oh me and Josh went hiking with his friend and found some coyote dens. No animal encounters, though we found some poo..ew. I wouldn't walk through it so I hopped on Josh's back lol. I got alot of nice pictures too. I know what makes me sick at his house now...the air. It's so thick because they smoke in there and I'm not used to it.

October 29th, 2008

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So, I'm really tired and feel very sick right now. Few days ago I choked in my sleep, became disoriented because I fell asleep on the kitchen chair and fell, had my boyfriend carry me up the stairs, and threw up in his waste basket lmao. Today I feel jut as bad...had trouble waking from a horrible dream (It involved someone's underwear and Liz was chasing me and Josh around with projectile vomit...something about a sock and climbing up a big hill..yea..), upset stomach all friggin day...didn't help that I didn't want to eat. Josh gave himself a mohawk...at least he didn't scalp the sides of his head. Looks cute though...whatever he does is fine with me just as long as he doesn't go permanently bald. I've decided to get a tattoo..well Josh persuaded me, although I can make my own choices.
 
Yabisi's tattoo

I did this many many years ago. It'll be very similar to that except I just want it in black and white, no electricity or bg. The leaves will be a little bit different though, and it won't say Yabisi. So I'm getting it on the right side of my chest...gotta hide that shit for work lol. I have no doubt in my mind that instead of it being painful, it'll tickle horribly. I'm so used to being in pain most of the time so I know I'll be able to handle it. I should start drawing this all over again though. Keith is gonna take me this Tuesday, so I'll have plenty of time to say goodbye to the empty space on my skin lol.

I'll have no trouble going to sleep tonight seeing as I'm hella tired right now lol.

October 17th, 2008

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Well my Tues + Wed weekend was a bit odd. I agreed to hang out with Josh because he asked me to. I ended up having to stay at his house because of the rain. We watched a few movies..and we ended up cuddling. He kept trying to kiss me but I kept backing away. I slept in his bed, and he told me he had strong emotions for me. We looked in each other's eyes for a few mins...and I dunno what to make of that. I never really liked the highschool approach "Hey will you go out with me?" or "Will you be my girlfriend?" He just looked in my eyes, and then I let him kiss me. Then he tried to get me to call out from work, but I couldn't. Then he has his friend call me at work from Josh's phone, asking if I could come over to hang out. He knew how tired I was today, I could barely keep my eyes open, and he kept tickling me so I couldn't go to sleep lol. I have to get my sleep tonight. Oh also we went to the racino, and one of the young bartenders offered me a drink, and Josh asked me to show him who the bartender was so he could punch him lmao. I thought it was hilarious since he got all defensive...and this wasn't even when we were going out lol. I really hope he has changed though. Even his best friend tells me that Josh really likes me, and that alot of the time what he says he doesn't mean. He just has to get used to having a girl like me around since I'm so different. Compared to all the girls here, I believe I am.

Anyway my hefties are getting heavier so I gotta sleep.

October 14th, 2008

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Liz's bday is coming up soon. November 6th. Got to make a mark on my calendar for it. I want to get her one of thse big stuffed animals from that toy store near my house. Her stupid daughter took off and left the kids again. Linda my boss sayd Katy always does this around Winter time. I hope she doesn't come back, she doesn't need to be putting the kids through things like this.  They were warming up to her, and then she takes off...why?

Dan invited me to go to the Eastern State Penitary as a Halloween scare...I was thinking about it, but now it is a definite no. I can handle it, but the thing is, I'm not wiling to put myself through a negative experience just to get scared intentionally, when I can do something more pleasant.

I don't understand my mind; I keep getting images of these horrible monsters. I know I'm making them up, but for some reason I just keep thinking about them and how to make them look more gruesome. I'm afraid to draw them on paper, but I think maybe it's because of my artistic mind and Halloween coming up. I'm thinking of something that kind of resembles the predator mixed with a licker from resident evil. ew. they're both really ugly; esp when the predator takes off it's mask lol. I bet I would be a good movie monster maker lol.

Anyway, I figured I would give Josh a last chance to prove himself to me. It'll take time for me to warm up to him again, but I agreed to be his friend and at least tolerate his presence without getting annoyed. I see a bit of improvement in his attitude, but I'm still very cautious and still don't trust him that much. I know how much Liz wants us to get back together, but it is my choice afterall. I knew after he had his lil tantrums got all that anger off his chest, that he would calm down sooner or later. I just didn't want to be a part of all that, and I'm unwilling to help someone who doesn't want to help themselves first.

Gonna eat at a restaurant called the Roughcutt tommorrow...sounds um..tough. I heard the food was awesome there though for lunch. God I'm thinking about food at 3 in the morning :/

September 30th, 2008

On A Good Note..

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I just got done reading my friends rap and it seriously has me blown. This is somewhat how Nas raps and it's just amazing.

Don't Cry Over Lost Time
by Doug Miceli

 

 

Time keeps on slippin and the clock don't stop tickin
As I keep switchin the disc in my stereo system
Skippin to the next song on the playlist of life while rippin
Up peices of paper upon which my pathetic poems are written to the rythmn

And the calender keeps trickin me into thinkin this existence isn't infinite
This image is fictitious stop livin within it's limits
Don't blink an eye it might fly by in an instant
What once was so close has somehow become so distant

 

Time is money and money's the root of all evil
By my logic that makes all three of them equal
If that is what makes up the roots then what are the people
just the leaves on the tree that grow and fall then die so peaceful

 

Cash is like heroin and time is the needle
Dream's are like drugs when a free mind is illegal
Maybe it's a desperate attempt by the devil designed to decieve you
Just a fallacy that you'll see through when God finally receive's you

 

I had some time to kill so I decided to murder three spare minutes I had on my hands in the first degree
Beat them all so bad had them on the ground bleeding externally
As they layed soaking in their own blood one of them opened it's eyes and turned to me
It said "I am Father Time you can't kill, sell or purchase me
I can be hurt but I'll be fine after a few seconds of surgery
What matter's most now is you listen close cuz it's an emergency
I'm just a figment of your imagination programmed into your brain's circuitry
Deliver the message to your kind to stop treating me as currency
What has been won't always be and that's a certainty
The universe is vast your planet Earth is just it's nursery
But if you can only remember one thing this is the lesson I wish you learn from me
Your physical body is temporary but your soul shall live in eternity"

 

I've come to the conclusion that time is just an illusion
Like a viral infection that distorts perception causing endless confusion
If your scared of it's wrath a fear of death is it's pollution
Don't be victim to it's symptoms or your mission is ruined

If my English was as profficient I think I could write something similar, but I have to widen my vocabulary since I have to rely on the thesaurus and dictionary to guide me a little.

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SOOOO I couldn't help but post this picture because I found it hilarious. Why would they blue her face on one but not the other? WHAT fat person would wear that now? Come on lmao. It's like the same one in the other picture but on a fat person...so I guess it shrunk when she did. I don't suck in my stomach when I sit down either lol.

So...I tried Abience or w.e.; it didn't work as well as I thought it would. Yea it knocked me out, but not for 8 hours...for like 4 or something. I still woke up hella tired and irritated. I don't get how they're strong enough for Liz, but not strong enough for me. She said if she took two of them she would start drooling lol. She still denies that she was drooling because she was drunk at the Christmas party lmao. But yea this time when I take the pill I'll make sure I'm not sitting at the computer. It's seriously like taking anesthetic..I didn't think I was going to make it to the bed because I couldn't get myself to walk right lmao. It's a funny feeling.

Some idiot old guy caused a ruckus at my job today. I was in the DJ booth and this drunkard came up, asked for some good music (very rude-like) and then the DJ told him to hold on one second because he needed to get his computer started, and the guy got mad started cursing and said "If you don't put any music that I like on, I'll take away your microphone." And the DJ was like w.e., so the guy snatched it (it was on the mic holder) And was like "Now what you gonna do?" The DJ still ignored him. He kept banging on the sides of the DJ's window opening too. So the guy decided to grab my friend and try and dance with her, and actually tried to kiss her...she got away and told the bartender. Then out of nowhere, the guy picks up a friggin chair, throws it on the ground and breaks one of the legs off of it. Thats when they kicked him out, and he's got to pay for the chair. He's lucky he didn't get arrested. An old guy...you'd think being that age that he would act more like an adult rather than a teenager, but some of them never grow up lol.



September 27th, 2008

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So after two days of being under a bottle, the monster bug died. I got a chance to take a closer look at it. It actually doesn't seem as ugly as I thought it was. These weird markings on it's back made it look kind of cool. Buuuut...a dead bug is a good bug. That thing sounded like a bee flying around and I hate bees. I don't care how fuzzy they are..

So my paycheck was fucked up as usual. Deja vu...did I say that in my last post? Josh is still trying to talk to me...and now he's really getting on my nerves. I'm like..what the hell does he want from me? So...I decided to resort to highschool times and pass him a note. Of course it doesn't say any nice things; it kindly says "Go away and leave me alone." I got annoyed with one of the bar staff chics yesterday and I yelled at her. I came back in and Josh is standing there giving me the thumbs up. I told him I hate working with a bunch of whiney kids, and I can't stand any of them. Then he asked me if he qualified as one of those kids, and I said yes, then walked away. I honestly don't know what he wants from me...and I keep telling him to fuck off but it doesn't seem to be working. Hopefully Dink will be at work with me today so I can hang around with him. He doesn't seem to like Josh that much either lmao...it's sad since they're brothers.

My regular sleeping cycle is getting a little easier to get back into, but it's still not great. I went to sleep at 3am, and woke up at 7am, then went back to sleep at 9am, and woke up at 11am. The tiniest noises seem to irritate me, like a door closing or my father coughing. My RLS doesn't make it any better. Even worse, it's been raining so my body is covered in little annoying pains. So yea No sleep + Fibromyalgia + RLS = very moody Marqui. And hell...I try. I put on my acting face at work (Not to my coworkers of course..fuck them lol) and I do what I'm supposed to do without any complaining.

Hot cross buns.

September 15th, 2008

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I'm probably exaggerating but there is this huge pimple on the right side of my cheek. It friggin hurts...I bet there's a civilization in there. As long as it doesn't get that white stuff I should be fine...mentally lol. So last nght...I actually went to sleep! Not on time but I still did it. Now I'm trying to think of what I did different from the other sleepless nights. Ah...eating goldfish?! Now that I think about it, I haven't had a box in two days. Hm...>:\ Ain't that a bitch. Well I plan on sleeping now so I guess I'm going to have to not do that whole late midnight snack thing. Some people can do it, I can't. I dreamt too...which was funny. I think I was in a rush so I did my daily routine of packing my bookbag with my necessities, and that's all I can remember.

Off to work today...no more dealing with food. I refuse to....and I want to stay at the night club so I won't have to see my old boss. Pretty pissed off with his foreign ass. He sounds like Tony Montana lol. But yea I bet it's worse at the main diningroom now that they brought back the sit down breakfast. It used to be buffet. You're not making as much either because you don't get housecount (money for each person that walks in) for the whole dingingroom; just the people you serve. I don't think they're doing alacards anymore though. Those are people who just walk in and have to pay their meals. Then we have mealplan and timeshare...so many complicated things.

September 14th, 2008

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That bug I was talking about..yea I got a picture of that big ass bitch. It was all swinging from my light...I crawled out the room like there was a shootout lmao. Then I got the hairspray and the air freshener on it, until it fell. Then it got high and dragged itself under my dresser and died. That thing sounded like a fuckin bee, and was like a foot long :B I have no clue what kind of bug it is..but it has a big butt. I thought it was some kind of beetle, but I'm scared to look under the dresser since it died under there. So...the sprays killed it, not me..I'm no murderer XD

My seasons are coming up (deja vuuuu) and that means I have to start putting on alot more coca butter and Vit. E on my face. Seasons of the wolf, and the acne swarm lol. I don't have an oily face, and it seems everytime I don't wash my face and leave my makeup on, my face appears clearer the next day. Thats why I assume I don't have an oily face lol. It doesn't get dry though thank goodness. My nose does peel a little though when I'm standing in the wind for a while..so I get the pumice stone on it. I think I need to start eating more meats too for protein...meat makes me queasy but hey, beauty is pain..:/

It's normal to hear really high pitched frequencies that cause your ears to hurt right? I think this noise is coming from my computer...it's so annoying.

Anyway bed time. It'll probably be a dark rainy day so I don't have to put Miga on my face to block out the light.

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